May 1 2011

Well, I used to do this a while back, and now I figure to help me through a big time in life I feel like it's proper to do this right now. Just to get the thoughts out, not sure anyone will read this, if ever but hey-- at least it'll get my ideas out.

Today is May 1, 2011. To be honest, I can't really tell what's going to happen tomorrow, this week, or the next month. All I can tell for sure is that hopefully I can try my best.

I've been working at this school thing mediocre wise until now. Just floundering by, even when I work my hardest all it ever shows is a floundering student. I wonder to myself, is this what people will judge me by when it comes to the future? Just floundering? I often admit to myself it seems bleak for the most part but I manage to get out of it for the most part.

Today is May 1,2011 and I hope today is the start of my new life, which is what I propose. This blog hopefully won't be all dreary like I was six years ago, I will actually post it for my future self to look upon when he's feeling sad, or when he's wanting to feel nostalgic. So, to my futureself, did we make it? How did it go? Where are we now? Are the dreams still in tact? Have I fallen astray?

Saturday was alright, I guess. I watched scary movies until dawn which is usually better when you do it with a crowd. I wonder what it would've been if I had done all the things I dreamed of until now. Would it still have been myself, or someone else?

It's been way too long and it feels better to let it out just flowing which is a nice change.

Another question, is Mom still untrustworthy? Did you get out of that room? Are you healthy?  It'd be nice to hopefully think the first two have changed, but yeah I wouldn't blame you if you didn't. In any case, I think I'll be ending my first blog like this.

Til then.